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I WANT GO TO NIGHT SAFARI
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I WANT GO TO NIGHT SAFARI
I WANT JOIN NATIONAL SERVICE
Recently, MIA for a few days due to busy with something else, sorry ): I moved to Boon Lay and it's easier for me to meet my friends(: Actually,
my main motive is to forget him.I told my mom'ma that I wanted to go back to indonesia but she refused to let me go! )': How long must I suffer this way?!?!? Whenever I stepped into Tampines, I would hear ample of gossips.Those gossips' are all about that guy.He likes that girl or what?! That's his fucking problem.Thank you so much.Indeed, I would cry like one fucking crybaby ): Who on earth doesn't feel hurt when you care so much of that guy.His health, his studies, his everything!! )': I want the best for him, I do!!!! )': I have stopped the rumours about us in school by creating a fake story that I love someone's else! )': Because of me, I don't want his relationship with his future girl gets affected.It's like I am just a wall in between them or easy said, third party.I forced myself to hurl vulgarities at you or running away from you! A lot of people said that I treated you differently as in getting worst?!): Countless times of saying not to ask people "Where's me?" and you still do it! When Emma told me about you, I was almost closed to tears'.Even a tiny simple question you asked her about me, it really made me superb' happy!! Sadly, I couldn't show my happy expressions to her because I told her that I have moved on but she still knows that I care for him.Thank you husband, I am soso lucky having you by my side(: When I cry, you always be my witness.
Not to mention, Irsyam, Rozlin, Sunita, Yuemin, Nazif, Divya, Philicia, Ruyi, Irah, Bishman, Maisarah and Suriya' too! Thank you so much for the consolation :D!!! Every pray that I made, your name will always be there.I'm really hoping your lungs' are getting better every single day!
Though my efforts went into the drain, I don't ask anything in return(: Sec 3 (: - I remembered you playing basketball while waving your both hands' in the air showed a symbol of good-bye which looked exactly like a monkey(: Whenever I want to sit down, you would use your chicken's legs to pull out the chair .l. :D- wanting me to fall down.In the end, you would receive scolding!! Whenever you feel stress, you would pinch my cheeks (You think my cheeks can make you STRESS-FREE?!) Whenever I put my wawa's biscuits behind, from 10 to 5 to 3 to 1 biscuit D:I would say "Hell yeah!! Thanks' a lot man!" Whenever you need a cigg, I would run after school and bought for you, Malboro menthol!! In the past, you like malboro menthol but now, winston red?D: Things really do change pretty fast indeed T.T D: Day by day has passed, your hair seemed to be growing pretty well.No longer the botak whom I know, no more!! I hope his friends around him will take great care of him! I'm also the cause of your lungs.Thanks to me your lungs became like this ):! If I know your condition will become like this, I shouldn't have bought you cigg.F.M.L seriously! I feel guilty!! D': I am sorry if I have ever controlled you from smoking like one doggyD: Controlling someone from smoking is far way better than controlling someone from flirting, I guess so? Especially for guys.This is between life-and-death O:!! While the other one is between freedom-and-hell.So yeah, I also don't know what on earth am I talking actually? HAHAHAHA!! Yeah, thanks for your calls when I was down.I made alot of excuses for not talking to you on the phone!! Want to know why? The reason is I AM SHY!!! T.T HAHAHA.It may sound retarded or krazy but it's true ok?!! You would approach me when you needed some entertainments and not to forget you would neglect me when you have found someone's else.(Claps!) I'm not angry because I am being used lol.
I am angry because I am too giving in until being fooled)': I don't blame him nor fate.I should accept the fact' that I am not important to him or no longer needed ya? At that particular moment, you told people that I kept messaging you eventhough I have said before I would not message you anymore.Meaning? I am bothering your life all this while?? I get it now.I am sorry if my care doesn't reach to your expectations as in I can only give you sweets and hot water whenever you are sick )':I am sorry if my sacrification doesn't fulfill your needs.I am sorry if I cannot make you happy.I could only afford to buy cookies or muffins - Oh gosh!, I am making him fat! ): I am not good enough so you deserve someone's else.I am better off alone if it makes you happy! (:'D Forgive me for my harsh words and sucky behaviour )': I, myself, don't know what on earth am I doing.It has got to do with anger and sadness): Sometimes I put a brave front just to make sure that people will not ask me whether I am okay?! I am not going to bother your life anymore ya? There are ample of girls in this earth.You can have it whatever you like.I really want to have a coma so that I could forget the ones who hurt deeply)': Instead of crying every single day living my life with misery)': This post will be the final one about you and I have tried my level best to do whatever I can.Move on and get over it pretty soon, I guess? I hope I can make it through D':'(
Lastly, I am sorry if I have slapped your face 4 times.It hurts I know! )':
When you called, you thought I have forgotten you but I'm not!! I could recognize your voice when you were on the second floor): while I was at the play area (school) I PRETENDED THAT I HAVE FORGOTTEN YOU
Goodbye monk-key (L) (For you its meant to be a C-R-A-P)
Please god, give me strength to forget everything.
posted by Mew @ 1:53 AM
